Even as I write this, I’m rolling my eyes at myself. Sharing something that I don’t have a full grasp on always makes me want to save it for later, save it until I really know what I’m talking about, save it until it’s safe, save it until its ready…save it until I’m ready. That’s probably why I do not write every day, and why I have so many dreams and have put so little into action. Let me be completely honest, that IS why I drag my feet on just about everything in my life. My drive…I can hear my husband lovingly saying ‘What drive?’…it is in a constant state of being in park. A fear of failure causes me to slam on the breaks as soon as I get any kind of momentum going.
For a long time I even struggled with not creating at all, not being able to decide on the wrong and right purposes of it. I saw creativity in light of adding to an already fattened world of materialism. I saw style through the lens of attaining worldly goods. I saw design as not being content with what I already have. Let me first say that these are still possible…and I will always be tempted to stray into these self-centered areas if I lose sight of one truth…God is Supreme Maker. He created us in His image, and therefore because He created us, we in turn…create. Our creativity gets out of line, whenever it stops before flowing to the rightful praise and honor of Creator God. When we desire style and design for our own selfish pleasure, to puff up our own ego, to shove our talents/gifts/wealth at our neighbors in a heart of arrogance…creativity has become foolishly dark and empty. I am just beginning to set this truth in my heart and mind. Like I said before, I was being poisoned in lies for a long time. I am just beginning to see that it’s okay to create, and to look at pretty things…only if I can look through the beauty to The One Who Is Beauty. When in wisdom, to purchase or make my home for the enjoyment, function, design, style, or benefit for guests turning continual thanks to God the Giver of all things. I check my heart attitude, and ask myself who will be receiving the final praise (my praise or God’s praise, my glory or God’s glory). If both do not line up to Gospel centered living, then I go no further, ask for forgiveness, and rest in grace.
It’s amazing to me that God delights in our creativity. Someone may need to hear this…God delights in your creativity. I need to hear that God delights in my creativity. In Exodus, the LORD filled certain men with the Spirit of God to have the ability, intelligence, knowledge, and all craftsmanship to devise artistic designs of the Tabernacle. (Exodus 31:1-11) Have you tried to read the details of the Tabernacle? It is extraordinary! God is the First and Greatest Artist (Genesis 1:1)
The next step in this blessed journey is for me to find out what Jesus has designed for me to design, what He has called me to create. In the meantime, I search for Who He Is through His Word, and see glimpses of His Beauty in the creative things He has given.
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